Sometimes life jokes at us...

Sometimes life jokes at us. Play with our feelings, our senses, our imagination. Each one of us has a little world. We live in a world full of small worlds, like a puzzle. Some people let the door open, some people close it and others just peek on the locker to choose who they let to come in. I think that the main problem in the real world is that most people close or just choose who to relate to. That’s why we can’t move forward, that’s why we (and when I say we is the human race!) don’t accept the difference. Each one of us just think that is superior than the other one. And I’m not an exception. My world has always the door open. But the way to get there is very hard. Sometimes I keep thinking about that way and about people who crossed it. They had to climb big mountains full of snow, rocks and wild animals. They had to scream so loud for me to listen and run to get them. Some people stayed in half of the way. We can talk in the top of the mountain and then I go back to my world and they return to their. You, Rob, you flew. You didn’t cross the hard way, you didn’t pass the snow, the rocks or the wild animals. You didn’t eat the clouds, just flew above them; didn’t grab the stars, just looked at them and realized that they are perfect exactly where they are; you didn’t scream, because I was already waiting for you. Why? Why didn’t you have that difficulty that everyone has? Maybe your world is simmilar to mine and you knew all the steps to get there. I don’t know the answer, but in fact I wanted to say that you entered in my world that is kept in my heart. Sometimes life jokes at us.

In the real world people think that I’m crazy. Doing what I want, that I really want! Even if it’s absurd. If I want to scream, I’ll scream. If I want to talk, I’ll just talk. If I want to listen, I’ll listen. If I want to be a ghost for one day, I’m a ghost. That’s simple, that’s freedom. Being free is the most important thing. Just don’t care about what people think or do. Just be.

The most funniest thing is that I have my beautiful daughter that thinks in the same way. I didn’t teach her to be like that. She choosed me has her mother. She was already like that and she’s my best friend. We live together in the same world, we share the same world. And nobody gets in without mine or her permission

The Universe gave us a gift. A real one. The one that you wait your all life to get it. And that gift was you, Robinson. Meeting a person like you make us want to live intensily life. Make us want to give everything away, to give up of everything that surround us to pay attention to your person. To your smile. I’m really grateful to the energies that brought you to our life. I never was so understood by a person. I think that I was never so happy with a person by my side. Relaxes me to see your beautiful eyes and your beautiful soul. Your kisses, hugs and love. But Universe can make things hard. Sometimes life jokes at us. What she brings, she takes away. And in this moment I have an ocean separating me from you. But I’m going to fight, first for your friendship and than for your love. I cry tears of missing. Is that unfair? Is that being sellfish? Maybe. But I can tell you some true words. Thinking of you makes me feel the heart exploding, butterflies in my stomach and a shiver going up my body. If that is being in love, it means that I never were, because I never felt like this. Thank you! Because of that I will laugh about the jokes that life does to me...

May 2008